A Total Loss

Last 2 weeks I dropped by at Bagan Serai Mosque for Maghrib prayer.

I was on my way back from Tanjung Piandang fetching up students from Chess Tournament.

If I just made my way home straight away, I might perform Maghrib very late.

So I decided to stop.

And I reached mosque by the time of azan, so I got chance to solat berjemaah.

Tears ran down throughout my solat, zikr and du'a.

I felt like Allah came nearer to me, giving all His love and tender.

And this is what I sought for so long.

I'd lost my own soul.

Lost in never-ending worldly business.

And that is a total loss of myself.

I missed to perform solat berjemaah frequently like I did with my friends during my study time.

I missed to attend usrah.

I missed to pray to Allah with my whole heart submitting only to Him.

I missed to memorize my favourite Surahs in al-Quran.

Ya Allah

I feel like I am the most useless person.

How far this world has dragged me far away from You.

Please bring me back Ya Allah

Give me strength to restructure my life back

I really need Your guidance

See, Bunsen Burner On My Songkok, Cikgu!

The first experiment for Form 4 Khawarizmi.
Their first ever Chemistry experiment.
To determine melting and freezing point of naphthalene.
I explained the procedures to them, clearly.
They made noise.
Whispered this and that to each other.
I showed them all the apparatus and the correct way of handling them.
Again, they made noise.
Punched here and there.
Rolled this and that.
Sniffed into naphthalene's container.
O very naughty kids!
I asked them to start the experiment.
As it was Friday morning.
When we hadn't too much time to play.
Again, they made noise.
I observed them one by one.
They kept shouting one another.
Sat on the lab cabinets.
And kept calling 'Cikgu!' millions of time.
But there, I could see something fishy.
Ya Allah!!
They lighted on the Bunsen burner.
And put it on their songkok.
"To made it a little bit higher, cikgu!
So that my naphthalene will melt faster than his!"
Heart attack.
I took his songkok, put the burner back on the table.
Then put the songkok back to where it should be - the head!

"What is it called, if we put something not at its own real place?"

"Zalim, cikgu!"

"What you should do then?"

"Ask for forgiveness from Bunsen burner and songkok cikgu!"

And I laughed heartily till tears ran down.
Kids, you never failed to amuse me.

"Get back to your place or I'll cancel this experiment at all!"

Allah Tak Akan Biarkan Kita Kehampaan

Jika kita berdoa seikhlas hati.
Dan sesungguhnya Dia Maha Mendengar.
Lagi Maha Mengabulkan Segala Doa.

Bujang Senang

It's really hard of being a single young lady, in a school.
Everyone is busy pairing you up with this and that guy.
Like you're now desperately looking for somebody to love.
And sadly, they don't even care about your feeling at all.

Hmm...
What is wrong of being single?

Please do not be so busybody.
It's Allah who will pair me up with somebody.
Allah knows who is the best for me.
Not you.
And not even your choice.

Susah Hati

Sekolah agama.
Setiap malam solat hajat.
Setiap hari baca al-Quran.
Sebelum tidur baca al-Mulk.
Pagi-pagi baca al-Ma'thurat.
Tazkirah saban waktu.

Tetapi,
mencuri!

Ya Allah
Di manakah silapnya?
Mengapa amal ibadah itu seperti tidak menyentuh rohnya?

Anakku,
Tidak berkat ilmu yang masuk ke dadamu
Akan gelap hitam hatimu
Dengan setitis hasil yang haram masuk ke tubuhmu!
Tidakkah kau takut dengan amaran Allah?

Semua pihak,
Perlu banyak muhasabah diri.

Ya Allah
Kau berilah petunjuk dan hidayah-Mu
Kepada anak didikku
Janganlah Engkau biarkan
Keperluan dunia mengaburi pandangan matanya